MERI PAHCHAN

MEIN KON HU KYA HU KAISE HU KAHA SE HU MERI PAHCHAN KYA HAI..?

MUJHE JANTE BHUT LOG HAI LEKIN MERI NAAM MERI PAHCHAN NI BATA PA RAHI KI MEIN HU KON 😒TOH SUNIYE AJ MEIN KHUD APNI PAHCHAN DETI HU SAYAD BHUTO SE LOG HOGE JO ISS SACHAYI KO SAMJH NAHI PATE KI WO HAI KON.

 DIL MEIN EK ULJHAN HAI APNI PAHCHAN KO LE KAR AKHIR KYU,MEIN EK PADHI LIKHI LADKI HU LEKIN MAINE ITNE DEGREE TO LE LIYA LEKIN MEIN KY KRNA CHAHTI KAVI KISI KO BOL NAHI PAYI. EK ACHE JOB MEIN HONE KE BAAD BHI MEIN SIRF DIN GINTI HU KI KUCH ACHA HO LEKIN ACHA TOH SB HO HI RAHA HAI BAS MUJHE ACHA NI LAG RAHA KYUKI MAINE KHUD KE LIYE JO BHI SOCHA THA WO NAHI HO PA RAHA MERI LAKH KOSISO KE BAAD BHI WO NAHI KAR PA RHI JISME MUJHE KHUSHI MILE KRNE MEIN. PAISA TOH MUJHE JOB KAR KE BHI ITNA MIL JATA KI APNE GHAR KO SAMBHAL LU LEKIN WO TO BAS EK SAMJHOTA HAI KHUD K SATH KHUDI KE LIYE😓,JIS KAAM KO KARNE MEIN MUJHE KHUSHI NAHI MIL RAHI WAHI KAAM KRTI HU HER DIN SUBHE UTH KAR OFFICE AANA JANA OR SOOO JNA GHAR JA KAR KHA PE KAR NAHIIIIIIIIIIIII.

MUJHE YE NAHI CHAHIYE YE MEIN KISKO BOLU MERE KAAM SE MERE HER KOE KHUSH HAI MERE JOB BHI ACHI HAI BHUT MAAN SAMAN IZZAT HAI EK BOSS KI TARAH HI KAAM KARTI HU KOE RUK TOK NAHI TIME PE SALARY GHAR PE BHI SAB KHUSH DOSTO SE MILO TO WO BOLTE AREE TERA KYA HAI TU TO SET HAI FAMILY MEMBERS BHI GHAR AATE TO MERI MUMMY KO BOL KR JATE KI APKI BETI TOH BHUT ACHI SASKARI SETTLE HAI AB APKO KYA CHAHIYE MUMMY BHI BOLTI KI AB BAS ACHE GHAR MEIN SAADI HO JAYEEEEEE LEKIN KYUUUU KOE KYU NAHI PUCHATA KYA TUM KHUSH HO  ISS KAAM MEIN KABHI  LOG YE KYU NAHI BOLTE THIK HAI TU SETTLE HAI ACHA KAMA RHI LEKIN TERA KOE SAPNA HAI TMKO KUCH ALG KRNE KA MN HAI TOH KAR TU YE SAWAL MERE MN MEIN HER WAQT AATA HAI KI KYUUU?

JAB MEIN CHHOTI THI SHCOOL JAYA KARTI THI TO MEIN KHUD KO HUMESA BHUT PYAAR KARTI THI HER WAQT MIRROR KE SAMNE BAITH KAR KHUD KO DEKHTI RAHTI THI JAB BHI GHAR MEIN LADYI HOTA TO MEIN SOCHTI THI BADI  HO JAOGI TO APNI MUMMY KO ISS MOHHOL SE BAHAR LE JAOGI AJ MEIN LE AAYI LEKIN JO SOCHA THA KHUD KE LIYE WO NAHI KAR PAYI.

AJ BHI MEIN KHUD KO SAMJH NI PAA RHI TIME NAHI DE PA RAHI HU JAB BHI KUCH KHUD KE LIYE LENE KA MN KHANE KA MN KUCH KRNE KA MN HOTA HAI OR AGR MERE SAMNE KHUD KO OR MERI BAHEN MUMMY YA KOE DOST HO TOH KHUD KE LIYE NA SOCH KAR UNKE LIYE KAR JATI HU APNE LIYE EK DRESS LENE MEIN ITNA AFSOS HOTA JAISE KI PAISA KO PANI MEIN DAL RHI HU LEKIN MERI BAHENE KABHI MUJHSE KABHI KISI BHI CHIZ KE LIYE BOL DE  KHANE PINE GHUMNE KOE BHI CHIZ KE LIYE YA MERI MUMMY KO KISI RELATIVE KE LIYE KUCH LENA HOTA MEIN KAR DETI HU PHLE WO KI KOE MUJHSE NAKHUSH NA HO SAB KHUS RHE YE MERI SOCH MUJHE KHUD KE LIYE SOCHNE NAHI DE RAHI. 

PATA NAHI, MEIN KAB KHUD KO SAMJH PAOGI. HER RISHTE KO KHUD SE PHELE RAKHTI KYA YAHI MERI KAMJORI HAI , 

MUJHE SAPNE DEKHNE KA HAQ HAI PURA KARNE KA NAHI . MAIN KISI KAHU KI MUJHE YE KARNA YE CHAHIYE KOE EK ADMI JO MUJHSE MERE BARE MEIN PUCHE KAHEE KI TUM KYA CHAHTI HO TUM APNE LIYA SOCHO AJ JO MUJHE 5 SAAL KA TIME DIYA GAYA HAI USS TIME MEIN MAIN KHUD KE LIYE KAISE KARU GHAR KI ZIMDHARIYO NE MUJHE BADH RAKHA HAI AGAR YE 5 SAAL KHUD KO DU TO GHAR BEKHAR JAYGA OR APNE LIYE KUCH NA KIYA INN 5 SAALO MEIN TO SAYAD PURI ZINADGI APNE AAP KO EK BOX MEIN BAND KAR KE RAKHNA PAD JAYGA KI SAYAD KAR LIYA HOTA APNE LIYE SOCH LIYA HOTA .

BAS YAHI HAI MERI PAHCHAN JO KHUD KO JAAN NAHI PA RAHI SAMJH NAHI PA RAHI APNOKE LIYE APNEAP KO HI KHOTI JA RAHI HU.

KYA AP BHI APNE SAPNO KE LIYE SOCH NAHI PA RAHE TOH MUJHE SAJHA KARE 😊

                                                                                                                       

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